For the last hour and 47 minutes, I’ve had the same song on repeat. Why? Because I love a good cry. Sadness itself has become my only comfort. It’s the only thing that hasn’t disappointed me. It’s reliable, and you know what you’re getting when it comes to complete and utter sadness. There’s no fucking around. And so there I was crying; Crying until it tires you out completely, and you’re left to contemplate why you were so upset in the first place. And then you’re just left to feel.
And just when you think there can’t be anymore tears, your eyes start to water.
The only way to stop is to either focus on something good or just completely ignore that niggling feeling. And since everything in my life is shit, well the only choice I have left is to ignore. So I’ll just tuck away these feelings for now and save them for a rainy day. I don’t want to have to deal with them now.
I’ll just settle for numbness, thanks.
